Living my life, like its golden!

Ok so for as long as I can remember, I’ve been as impatient as the day is long. If I ask someone a question, I need a response before I even finish asking what it is that I’m asking. If I send someone a text and they haven’t responded within 30 seconds, I automatically assume that they’re ignoring me. In relationships, if I’ve been on more than 3 dates with a female, I need to know where it is that we are going from there. For too long I have been preoccupied with what’s next and what happens after this, that I’ve neglected to live in the moment. I never took the time out to appreciate what was in front of me, and just embrace it for what it was. Going with the flow was a phrase that wasn’t in my vernacular, and its killed me. So many relationships that could have been special if I just went with the natural flow of things. So many friendships I could have maintained had I not been so impatient. Even in my professional life, if I’m at a job for longer than 6 months and they haven’t promoted me, I’m questioning why it hasn’t happened yet. But, after a much needed day of self reflection and another potential relationship going the way of all flesh, I had an epiphany. I have come to the conclusion that from now on, every day that I have left on Gods green earth, I will spend enjoying every single moment. No more questioning what’s next or who’s next. No more questioning why hasn’t something been done yet, or why a question hasn’t been answered yet. Gone are the days of me jumping head first into a relationship because I’m worried that I’m almost 30 and still single. From now on, I go wherever the wind takes me. Wherever the flow flows me, lol. I would hate to be 75 years old on my death bed, wondering why I never embraced life and all its splendiferousness. I need to know that when I die, that I lived my life to its fullest, and not a drop less. To know that I earned a gold star from the man upstairs for all the effort that I put in to get everything out of what life and this world has to offer. I need to know that I lived my life like it was indeed golden.